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| Deborah Chizaram Nnamani |
Not even “manage” fail…
I mean carryover.
And this is the part that pained me:
I read that course.
I studied it.
I understood it so well that I was even teaching people.
So tell me why I will now fail it?
When the result came out, I broke down.
I cried ehn… I cried.
My eyes were red and swollen.
I called my parents, still crying.
Even people were surprised.
“How did you fail this course?”
I was confused myself.
In fact, I wanted to go for a remark because I knew what I wrote.
That was how sure I was.
But my dad said no.
And then he said something I will never forget.
“Deborah, why are you wasting your tears like this?”
That thing pained me ðŸ˜
Because in my head I’m like… “Is this not something to cry about?”
But he continued.
“Don’t you know your tears are a weapon of warfare?
Learn to use them. Don’t waste them.”
I went quiet.
Then he said something else that changed my thinking.
He said,
“You might not understand it now,
but God is preparing you for the future.
When someone fails a course and comes to you,
if you’ve never experienced it,
you will just talk… but you won’t understand.”
Hmm.
That part entered.
Because it’s true.
It’s easy to advise from outside.
But when you’ve actually been there…
when you’ve cried it…
when it has happened to you…
You don’t talk the same way.
He said,
“Sometimes God allows certain things
not because He is wicked…
but because He wants to position you
for people that will need you later.”
That day, I didn’t feel better immediately.
But I understood something:
Not everything that happens to you is against you.
Some things are preparing you.
So if you’re in a season that doesn’t make sense right now…
Just calm down.
There’s something God is building in you that you will use later.
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